In my life, i got crushed alot, been inlove or loved. been hated alot, i have alote of friends around me
they are all my life they are just what i need they are too nice funny cool to spend the rest of your day with
but it doesn' t mean that i have enough of them. such a good thing to have more friends, even if they were not so close to you, most of us' d like that. unless you are seriously Griefy or something. Anyway i' m not saying that i' m social. but i don' t mind it when i have more friends. but sometimes when i start to get in a relationship, i break it!, i just destroy it. maybe because i' m so honest when i meet someone for the first time. not that i' m mean or rude. that' s weird, makes me feel down. cause when i meet someone i tell them what i feel for them even if it was overrated, but it doesn' t mean that all this relationship started on that cause. no! it' s completely not. people can' t understand a shit. makes me wonder if it' s really my problem or their' s, if it' s even a problem. i may pass it when i first fail in it, but when it happen again, with someone i really liked first. it could be hard to me, as it' s still hard. but now i realized that i can' t be way too nice with anyone i meet.
at that time i could judg if i could tell what' s in my heart. nobody can like you for how you look like, but what you are inside. if you have selfconfident then you' ll never mind. if something els then it must be you' re problem. in the end we all give chances for who seriously deserve it. it' s complecated around me when i think about it, we still alive anyway. just people need to give more than what they take. then maybe i' d feel that the world is still okay.
i wouldn' t really write something about that. i don' t usually write in this way
maybe it' s cause i really knew how it feels when you lose someone you' v always needed them..
wish you all nice day :)